I love, I love, I love.. what the fuck do I care what YOU love???

God, I fucking hate guys like this:
Greetings Goddess, my name is tom and i am a slave to Women.
i liked Your profile, but i am not interested in circle jerks.
i guess while i am giving hard limits i should keep going, i am not in any way bi-sexual, i will not suck cock and i will not take a cock up my anus, unless it is a strap-on You are wearing. i basically and in general do not play well with other males in bdsm.
But beside that i am open to anything.
You live an hour and a half away which is not real bad. i work in Westminster MD which is even closer. i could just come see You directly from there and then i am only an hour away, i would love to serve You as a bootlicker, chair, and doormat.
i love humiliations, i love eating out of a dog dish on the floor at Your feet. i love it when You mash my food into a digusting mess on the floor. i love it when You spit a loogy on the floor and make me lick it up.
i love being crushed under You, whether it is from being sat on or walked on. i love having my face stepped on and used as Your footrest. i can take a lot of pain, having my face ripped into by Your spike heel.
i love when my mouth is used as Your ashtay, Your toilet, Your used kleenix recepticle, or Your tampon disposal.
i love cleaning and doing menial, unpleasant chores which would obviously be beneath a Goddess such as Yourself, i love to mow the grass, wash the car, clean the toilet, scrub floors, do windows, hand wash Your laundry ANYTHING Goddess.
Please, if You can respect my limits, i would LOVE to serve You Goddess.
Bye for now

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I love, I love, I love.... what the fuck do I care what YOU love? Don't you fucks get that this is ABOUT ME?? Not about you. I am not here to fulfill your personal fucking fantasies. I'm here to fulfill my own. PERIOD. It's the "Nichole Show".... 100% all the way.

What was I thinking when I signed back up on Collarme.com ?? I guess if nothing else, it allows me to rant and rave like a maniac, and publically humiliate you stupid fucks. It gives me fodder for my blog.

LOSER!

Fun St Patrick's Day...

So, I met this group of guys off the internet, with a few of my dom girlfriends. They were panty slaves for the night. John who was single amazingly enough, had us all come over to his place in Baltimore after we met for a drink. We probably wouldn't have gone back to his place, but Baltimore was a crazy zoo tonight with people, and it was pissing down, so I was glad to go somewhere quiet, dry and cozy, where I could be myself ;-)

I'd spent a few hours masturbating into a few pairs of panties today that I took with me tonight. I was horny all day thinking about what *might* happen tonight. The suspense is sometimes as good, or even better, than the real thing! I was in a constant state of wetness the whole entire time.

I have been craving a good ass and pussy worshipping session. Thinking about wrapping my legs around some subs head, while I lock in him, and ride his face was all I could think about. It's been quite a while since I've gone out and played to be honest. One of my favourite tongues literally had a heart attack and died about 2 months ago. He was someone I could call on anytime, even from my car if I'd been grocery shopping or something, I could call him up and tell him I wanted to see him right then.. he'd adjust his schedule, and come right out to meet me. It was fucking awesome. My own personal little tongue slave at my beck and call. We used to meet at a hotel on Rockville Pike several times a week. I really miss him.

Anyway, I joined this group, and when I initially posted that I wanted to do this panty event, 70+ people replied to the poll saying they wanted to come and be part of it. To make it fair, I picked the first 7... although if I do it again, I think I'll figure out a spot where we can all meet, and at least have some kinky chat over drinks. 2 of the 7 didn't show up. They obviously chickened out.

Two of the guys were so horny that they whipped their cocks out as soon as we got sitting down, & that turns me on immensely.. (They did ask my permission, and I could see they were bursting at the seams, and I was dying to watch them worship my undies).. so they each got a pair of panties to sniff, suck and jerk off into, while I chose another guy to facesit. They literally came in seconds, got embarrassed and asked to go home... they wanted to keep the panties... no doubt for a second go around when they get home..

So that left 3 guys.. one for each of us. I didn't pay attention to what was going on with the others, because as soon as I got going, I was in total ecstasy. I was just dripping buckets of cum down my thighs, while he just kept sucking, and licking my cunt. I came tons of times. He came in my panties twice.

Riding home in the car, panty-less was even a turn on. SO..... anyone else up for something like this???

More reasons I fucking hate winter!

Ok the fact that I spend all my time at home means:

My bed never gets made - why bother when I'm just going to get in and out of it?
Porn.
Too much of "The View" & "Entertainment Tonight".
Napping in bed while watching the above.
An entire box of O's, before lunchtime.
Sweeping O's out of my bed before I can climb back into it.
No showering - Why bother? I'm only going back to bed.
Rabid masturbation. I'm in bed for Christsake - what else am I going to do?
More Porn. Followed by more masturbation.
TIVO.
Another box of Cheerio's by bedtime. All those orgasms make me have the munchies.

Do you live in the DC Metro area?

If so, then you might be interested in these:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Femdom_Meetup_DC/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/sexybbwmistress/

UPDATE 7/1/08: I've created my own group on "meetup" that allows you to RSVP for events via a calendar. Log onto it here: http://adultent.meetup.com/177/

Hello

God I hate this fucking cold ass weather. I'm sick of freezing my ass off. I'm sick of snow, ice and wearing sweats. I haven't gotten dressed up in AGES. I'm really really pissed off during the winter. I think it depresses me, and makes me angry all the time. I mean, I actually can see nothing wrong with throwing a cup of ice around some jack ass in another car, and I can't actually believe that some woman got sent to jail for 2 months for doing so. I mean it was a fucking soft cup of ice. What a pussy. I'd have thrown a big ass 20lb dumbell at him personally.

I hate drivers who sit on my ass - I brake hard intentionally just hoping that they fucking hit me, so I can get out of my car and scream obsenities at them. I hate the guys who swerve in and out of lanes just to get two cars ahead of me, I just want to see them wrap their beamers around an electricity pole.

Driving from the gym last weekend was hair-raising. When I arrived, it wasn't snowing - but that was at 9 in the morning, when I left at lunch time, there was a fucking blizzard going on outside. Of course, as I was getting on the highway, at about 30mph, the jack-asses in great big ass SUV's were speeding past at 80MPH - while it's snowing, hard. I just kept wishing that I'd see one of them wreck, and sure enough, just as I got off on my exit, there was some big old mercedes jeep being pulled out of the ditch by the cops, with half his axle missing, and his bumper laying 100 feet away. Karma is a great thing, and there must be something to the whole "Secret" thing. Positive thinking is alive and working after all.

This is a reminder to you --- don't mess with me! I'll put a hex on your ass!

God I hate jumping around!! Wanted to let you all know....

In response to the previous post ---> My email address msnichole_2002@yahoo.com is where you should submit your application to serve!!

ALSO.... I've read lots of e-mails over the last few weeks, but just haven't yet had time to sit down and actually respond - so Patrick -- be patient, and also those of you who are also wondering, do I like you or not!! LOL. I'm trying to get a handle on my good mail Vs bad mail!

I also wonder if I need a FAQ --> For instance, what do most of you want to know, that you can't find out either through my blog, or on my yahoo news group? I'm curious!!

I've been waiting to get pics from the other dommes from our evening out last Fri night, so far, they haven't come through!! ARRRGGGHHH.. I totally forgot to take my camera with me, so I'm relying on Jules coming through with some pics. She however is hyper sensitive about her scar on her leg from the dog attack, and as we're all pretty much nekkid (LOL) in most of the pics, that could be why I've not gotten any from her yet...

The other dommes who were there....??? Where are the bloody pics???!!!! I wanna post some on my blog!!!! I didn't want to do another entry, and jump past it, to have to go back!

Rick --> I've sent you two e-mails and haven't heard from you - however, they went to two different accounts - the one you use on my yahoo group and another one that you sent me an e-mail from. Are my emails now going to your spam folder? Sort it out boy!!

I've updated my wishlist -- there was so much stuff that I'd already been given for gifts, or bought myself that most of it was outdated.. Remember, if you want to show that you appreciate me, or my blog -- or just want to know more about what I'm currently into - check it out!

Hot bi-sexual experiences this weekend!

I had a really hot time this past weekend, it started off with a little fun with some girl friends at Ms Julie's house on Friday night. She was hosting a "Goddess" party for all the femdoms she knows. All told there were 15 of us that showed up. What was even more fun is that there were 3 slaves chosen to be there to serve us. I hadn't met any of the other women before, except Elizabeth, who is another really good friend of ours, so besides getting to know all these fabulous, sexy, dominant women, who all had the same views & desires as me, I also got to "cum" with them!

The 3 slaves were each well trained, intelligent, charming, and damn well endowed individuals, and each one was in service to one of the women that were in attendance.

There was plenty of wine, chocolate covered strawberries & a table of neatly prepared finger foods ~ all that had been put together by the slaves. They'd also spent the entire day cleaning bathrooms, and bedrooms so that we could all spend the night. While we initially chatted and got to know one another, the slaves were attentive to our needs. Of course with a group of highly sexual women, who've had one or two glasses of wine, the discussions quickly turned to how we like to be sexually satisfied. Boy did it run from the mundane, to the very bizarre as far as sexual interests were brought out into the open. During our conversation the slaves were allowed to listen, while they worked. It was fun watching them squirm with anticipation as the conversation got hotter and hotter.

All of the women got to play and take the slaves for a ride (literally) and I'll go into more detail tomorrow - it's late, and the state of the union address has put me to sleep, and made me lose my mojo!

Training a slave for my enjoyment....

Unless and until I've trained you, stop telling me that you're an experienced slave! What are you experienced in? Unless we've been together, you know absolutely nothing about me, or even in what ways I enjoy being served.

Just because you've played with a pro-domme a few times in her dungeon, it doesn't make you qualified to be slave material for ME to play with. Maybe if you'd said this statement 10 years ago, when I was just a slip of a lass, AND when the only dommes around were SERIOUS players, who although they charged for their sessions, happened to all be lifestyle dominas, it would have then meant something. However, going by today's standards, and how many thousands of women have decided to "cash in" on "playing" dominant, bitchy, aggressive and kinky... sheer quantity, does not equal quality.

A lot of these women online, don't even have a clue what it is, that THEY themselves want. How can they possibly train you, if they haven't even taken the time to get to know themselves inside and out, and figured out what turns them on, makes them tick, gets their mojo flowing, or stimulates not only their minds, but their libidos! It's so STUPID! For the majority of the women on the net today, they're looking to cash in on a fast buck, taking advantage of really stupid men.

A man is so fixated on his own FANTASY, that he gladly reiterates it, usually verbateum, as to how he's played it out in his mind for the last 10-20 years. He knows what words & actions will stimulate his orgasm, and the more stupid creatures among them, are only to happy to spill their guts to the "domme of their dreams".... while handing over several crisp one hundred dollar bills.... D'Oh!!! She, like a good actress, then plays it back to him, or if they're in a session, and his thing is "OTK spanking", she puts him over her knee, and spanks him, and if she's any good, she'll remember the key phrases that he's dropped in on the conversation, while he's trying to force the session along to his liking. So, yeah he got what he originally wanted, I guess.. to achieve orgasm (hopefully) while being spanked, (and yanked along) by a woman who turned him on.

That's hardly being submissive, or a slave, is it? It's also got nothing to do with female domination.

Then you come along to ME, now not only do I have to train you to stop wanting the thing you think it is that you want, but because you've honed your day-dreaming jerk off fantasy so well and for so damn long, you may not realise that in the long run, my way of true dominance will actually pay off. I mean you really have no idea of other things that may induce off the wall orgasms, because you never get out of your box.

Those of you who have been essentially paying to have your fantasy re-created are really not submissive, nor slave potential at all. You're also more than a little dumb, because this fantasy that you've created in your head for so long, can never truly be pulled off in reality. Reality is never as good as fantasy... that's why it's fantasy. Trust me on this.

Have you ever heard a drug addict say that they keep doing it because they want the feeling of their first high to return? Well that's not going to happen either, but still they keep chasing it - hoping that the fantasy of it, will trump their reality. Not so.. their reality is usually so fucked up, and they're at their utmost bottom, but still here they are thinking there is a small chance that the fantasy can be achieved...

SO.. for all you guys who have gone from domme, to domme, to domme, and tried unsuccessfully (which doesn't mean you didn't cum.... it just means it wasn't *as* good, as you *think* it could have been)... you need to leave the fantasy behind, and open yourself up to actually learning what it is the domina in question has in store for you, and what rocks her world. When you cum from that.... that will be your new high, your new reality, your new fantasy, and you will actually be a slave to her, in the true sense of the word.

When you start thinking about ways in which you can please your domina, and how if last night you think you really rocked her world, figuring out how to make it rock even better next time you see her, then you're living a submissive's life. When you get goose-bumps from knowing that you made her smile & wondering if she'll reward you in her own special way later, that's when you are truly her slave.

Remember though - the dominatrix that you choose needs to truly be a domina, and not just "fantasizing or playing" at being one to make a quick buck! The real domina will probably not be interested in "weak", or "stupid" or "mindless" men. She will have a sharp, keen intellect and will want her slave to match or exceed hers.

Strong men, with good character and of fairly good intelligence should apply here! I will make sure that everytime you're with me, you will rock my world.

I wish I could come up with some kind of a test that everyone has to take in order to publish anything that suggests they are a femdom, or into female domination.

Fucking HOT morning!!

I played with an old friend this morning who was in town and staying downtown at the Hilton. We've not seen each other for over 2 years, but keep in contact via e-mail, and phone when we can.

I showed up at his hotel room door around 10ish this morning, and underneath my wool coat I only had on a black leather bra, black leather panties, black seamed stockings and black peep toe high heels. In my messenger bag I had a strap on, wrist restraints, a new pair of stockings, my red lipstick and a paddle hair brush.

When he opened the door, he was a little disarmed - he knew I'd been working out and losing weight, but he said he didn't realise that there would be such a dramatic change in me...!! Well going from a size 22/24 to a size 12 I guess is pretty drastic if you haven't seen me in a while.

However, it's all for the better. Where there was flab, there is now muscle - I still have some belly fat that I want to lose, but my legs and especially my thighs - look awesome - toned, strong and muscular. My arms, back and shoulders are also nicely toned from lifting weights and tae bo!

Anyway, just from riding down there on the subway at 9am in the morning, when the trains are still packed, had gotten me a little wet, knowing that I had basically nothing on under my duffle coat! I actually didn't sit down because my coat would have slipped up way above my thighs and given everyone a free peep show, so knowing that also, turned me on!

I slid my coat off, and forced him down onto the bed, on his back. I pulled his robe off, and straddled his chest, pinning his arms under my knees. Did I mention this friend has a *thing* for stockings? I played with the stocking tops, snapping them against my thigh, while adjusting them, all the while, watching him... watching me..

He told me that he could feel my pussy dripping through my panties, and I couldn't help but pull my panties to the side, and slip two fingers up inside myself. I pulled them out and stuck them in his mouth. That's all it took - watching him sucking my cum off my fingers suddenly caused me to Whoosh, and I couldn't help but slide and grind myself onto his chest.

I unsnapped the crotch of my panties, and pulled them off, and positioned myself over his head. I pulled my thighs in tight, gripping his ears, and sat down on his face. I told him that I was feeling rather lazy, and demanded that he put his hands on my ass cheeks, and raise me up and down on his face. Within a few minutes I was so bloody wet, that I couldn't help but hump the hell out of his tongue and nose. As I got close to cumming, I reached into my bag and pulled out the new pair of stockings. I slid my hand into one of them, and wrapped it around the head of his cock, and used the other one to tie up his balls.

While I continued to ride his face, I made him jerk off for me. God I love watching a man so totally turned on, rub his cock, and hear him beg me for release. I adjusted my legs so that while I was sitting on his face, staring at his cock, my legs were on top of his stomach, and he knew he could touch his cock against my stocking clad legs. He begged and pleaded, and I got wetter and wetter.

After I'd cum again from fucking his face with my pussy, I restrained his arms behind his head, and spread his legs. I slid his cock into the one stocking, and removed the tie from his balls, putting that like a ball gag in his mouth, and tying it behind it his head.

I then put on my vibrating two way strap on (so I'm being penetrated also) and I climbed between his legs. I pulled my tits out of my bra, and bent over, so that his cock was between my titties, and I could hump him, by sliding my body up and down against his. I was also able to pinch, and slap his cock, and tease him by masturbating myself, and jerking off the big black strap on cock.

His cock was totally oozing through the stocking, and he kept saying he didn't know how much more of this he could take. It was SO HOT!

I grabbed my red lipstick out of my bag, and put it on him. I then straddled him again, and had him deep throat my cock, as he went further down on the dildo, the dildo went further inside of me. By this time, the insides of my thighs were just a gooey mess!

I got totally into humping him, fucking his face, and watching and listening to him beg for it up his ass, was just too much for me to take, so I had to let him have it!!! LOL.. I climbed back between his legs, and forced my body hard up against his, I used my cum as lube, and within the seconds, my cock was sliding up his tight little hole with no problem. The deeper it went in him, the deeper it went into me, and vibrating against my clit was sending me over the edge!

I came buckets, and told him he could cum too. He wound up shooting his load all over my stomach... and later, I made him lick it off ;-)

It was a totally hot morning, and one that I very much needed!

Happy New Year!

So no doubt a lot of you pervs made new years resolutions -- some of you probably vowed you'd QUIT looking at porn, or being involved in the femdom community, but as it's now the 5th of January, I'm sure you've already blown that resolution. Right?

I noticed a surge of new members at my local gym starting around Thanksgiving, and it was hard to get into classes over the holiday period, and forget about getting a treadmill or elliptical machine over the last 4 days, but voila -- today there was hardly anyone there! LOL. I'm thrilled, because I'm not the most patient person in the world, and being a primadonna, had to stop myself commanding guys to get off the machine so I could use it -- because of course, my health and well being is SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT than theirs!!

All the regular strippers & sex workers were back conducting business on their cell phones while climbing the stair machines ~ they obviously have been working pretty hard over the holiday season, when it seems many more men can use the excuse that they're "going shopping" to get some time away from their families.

I made some new resolutions for myself -- getting better at being organized is #1. I have ADD, so it's always hard for me to get things together, or finish things that I've started - especially mundane, day to day things, that bore me, or don't stimulate me mentally.

I also have to get online more often. I haven't checked my email since before Thanksgiving - so of course when I log on, and my ADD brain sees thousands of e-mails, I freak out, and can't quite get it together to sort through them, and delete/file/respond.

Another big one that you'll all love, is that sexually, I have to take MORE time for me. Getting healthy has been top of my priority since last summer, and again because of my ADD, I can hyper-focus on one thing only, but then that's it! SO, I'm going to be on the prowl for new conquests, and ways to expand upon my lifestyle.

If you live in Maryland drop me a line -- let's play!